Betting On Yourself
If you’re an artist or an entrepreneur, your working life is by definition about risk. You’re already rolling the dice or you wouldn’t be doing what you’re doing. But beyond the inherent hazards of the artist/entrepreneur’s life, how should you manage risk?
(I’m not referring, by the way, to the Seinfeld episode featuring George Costanza and his protégée.)
My theory is to bet on yourself.
If I have $10,000, should I put it in the stock market? Or should I use that cash to back my own dream?
My stuff has crashed and burned 90% of the time. But always when I find myself with money, I use it to buy time—time for me to work.
I bet on myself.
Why does the chef who has opened three restaurants, all of which have gone belly-up … why does he leave his safe, lucrative, prestigious job running someone else’s four-star kitchen to take another flyer on another new eatery? Is he crazy? Yes. But he knows his own heart. Is he driven by a dream of fame, money, recognition? No doubt. But in his deepest soul he is impelled by his own vision. At night after work, snuggled up with his sweetie, our chef sees new menus scrolling before his eyes; he sketches designs for stunning entryways and scribbles rosters of all-star staffs; he envisions the entirely new cuisine he will invent and elevate to perfection. He can’t help himself. Should he splurge his bankroll to take his squeeze to St. Bart’s? Okay. But the lion’s share must go to a seed account for the Next Big Try. It has to. His only alternative is to hang himself.
When I worked in advertising in New York, I would sock away my paychecks, then quit and move someplace cheap where I would write a novel. When I couldn’t sell that novel, I crawled back to NY, got out the knee pads, then did the same drill over again. When I made money in Hollywood, I used it to buy more time and did the same thing.
One frozen February Friday in New York, I caught a ride up to the country with my ad boss (who was a superstar creative director and a good guy, who had taken me off the street when my “portfolio” was literally scribbled on the backs of cocktail napkins). As his BMW was cruising north on the Saw Mill River Parkway we happened to pass what was probably the dirtiest, scurviest freakazoid hippie no-hoper, shivering in the frozen slush along the roadside. “Yeah, Steve,” my boss said, indicating the gentleman in question, “that’ll be you in a couple of months.” I gulped. Of course I was thinking the exact same thing. My boss knew my history. He had once described me as “the man who has written more words for less money than anyone in literary history.” But he knew, and I knew, that I was going to roll the dice again—and probably in the aforementioned two months.
In Hollywood, writers and directors have an axiom: “One for love and one for money.” What they mean is that the crafting of a career in the real world sometimes requires a canny to-and-fro-ing between art and commerce. Take one job on Track #2, the commercial track, but make sure the next one is on Track #1, the track from your heart.
Bet on yourself.
*gulp* – i am sure every budding writer can relate to this. it sort of freaked me out because it feels like the space i find myself in. i am not yet willing to give up on the dream of doing something worthwhile with my life, but trying to balance the creative act with commerce has to be the hardest thing i have ever faced. i don’t know how to stop. my muse or subconscious won’t allow me to work in an environment where i cannot do my art or express myself in a meaningful and life-sustaining way. i know it sounds melodramatic, but as long as i have the will, strength and life left in me i will keep going. i love writing but more than that i love the idea of creating something that perhaps, just maybe, has the ability to connect with people and make a slight difference to their lives.
i took that bet almost 40 yrs ago and never regretted doing so. either live your passion or die wondering if you should have.
“Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming “Wow! What a Ride!”
~Hunter South. Thomson
When my eldest was 22, he visited me in China and we had the following discussion:
I: Say we are both lost in a foreign city, we don’t speak the language and we have zero money, what would you do?
He: I would find a job, maybe unloading trucks, just so we can eat and find a shelter…
I: Okay, I hire you!
He: (stupefied) but, but… you don’t have money…
I: It’s okay, I only need to pay you tonight… now, about finding work to do, let’s get busy!
The message went through, he is now altering back and forth between jobs for the local TV station, and the making of his own reportages.
Thanks for this good article Mr Pressfield.
Steve, once again you show the ability to get things rolling on both tracks for me (and I’m guessing many who read this series).
“Bet on yourself” gets my muse ready to run through a wall, and it’s tempered with “One for love and one for money.”
Spear in one hand, shield in the other.
If you’re alone, with no responsibilities for others, it’s easy enough to slip-slide in and out, off and on the two tracks. But if there’s a wife or children – they better be willing to not only go along for the ride, but to apply the defibrillator to the artist’s heart. (And yes, my wife’s got the cables ready.)
“Bet on yourself.” Just what I needed to read.
Thank you, sir!
Love this. Thank you!
Such good advice.
Back in March of 89 I leveraged my pitiful salary (at an exorbitant interest rate) to buy a computer. It was a Mac SE. It cost me $3k when I was making less than $24k/year. That computer, plus a lot of skull sweat, lead me to a better paying job within 6 months. In short, it paid for itself in the first year alone.
Though I have a BA in History (with a minor in Attic Greek of all things) I make a very good living in graphics because I bet on myself very early on. Short of a therapist (which is another type of self-investment) that computer was the best investment I ever made, and has paid for itself year after year.
Wise words. You hit the 10k hour rule you’ve written on in the past, many times over because of your belief in yourself.
Thanks for the inspiration. I’ve just invested a lot of money in the final editing of my novel but it’s an investment, years of work, and it’s worth it.
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I am, Steve, I am, for eleven years , now. And I won’t ever quit. Thanks for the post. It is having a bracing effect for me this afternoon. Semper Fi
A-W-E-S-O-M-E…as usual…thanks for the inspiration!
Thank you Steven Pressfield, for the this post and for every word you write! You inspire me beyond measure! xo
This is breathtakingly awesome. You’ve just given me permission to do what I long to do at this juncture. Not that I needed permission from anyone other than myself, but it’s still so fantastic to hear it from you. I bought myself four years in Mexico from 2005-2008 to focus on dancing flamenco and writing. That choice has paid for itself many times over. My book emerged out of that time, as did my professional speaking career and my life coaching work as well.
My time in Mexico was the best investment I ever made in myself and my life and my art, yet I have always explained my results as being the inevitable benefits of following one’s heart and instinct.I love the idea that I was actually betting on myself. And I won!
Love your blog. Shared it with two friends tonight. Solid. Wonderful advise to all with a dream.
The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams, I bet.
As always Steve you are an amazing inspiration!
Not disagreeing, but when you have a wife, three kids, a mortgage, and a steady wage, it can be a difficult decision.
I love this. You have to have some confidence, and you have to go in at 110 percent!
Okay, so…. the money I’ve invested (and the debt I’ve incurred) getting those college degrees WILL pay off in the end, then.
Good to know. Because, sometimes, when you get to the end of a long road, hoping for something better, only to find another long road, it gets really, really discouraging.
“Bet on yourself.” That would be a great bumper sticker.
… until one reaches retirement age. By then, one should know how to live with means and still get something done. There is some obligation to go out under own steam, without having become a burden on others.
Very inspiring. As someone who’s about to venture into a rather scary new world, this is exactly the thing i needed to read
Thanks you very much
Matt (Turndog Millionaire)
Man, Such courage and encouragement. Thanks Stephen! I needed that.
Steve,thanks. I need to depend on myself more and not make excuses. Excuses are garbage and a waste of time.
I just came off a 5 month sabbatical to write my first fiction (first draft). And did! It feels great, even if I am a bit poorer financially, to have fulfilled the first draft of this dream.
Thank you Steve.
“One for the reel, one for the meal.”
this is the balance I’m trying to find in my life right now — between track 1 & track 2. Thank you for sharing!